Taken with instagram

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Because this is where my heart is.. To find My Heart, find God..

Psalm 27

1The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble? 2When evil people come to devour me, when my enemies and foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. 3Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will not be afraid. Even if I am attacked, I will remain confident. 4The one thing I ask of the Lord— the thing I seek most— is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, delighting in the Lord’s perfections and meditating in his Temple. 5For he will conceal me there when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock. 6Then I will hold my head high above my enemies who surround me. At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy, singing and praising the Lord with music. 7Hear me as I pray, O Lord. Be merciful and answer me! 8My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” 9Do not turn your back on me. Do not reject your servant in anger. You have always been my helper. Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me, O God of my salvation! 10Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close. 11Teach me how to live, O Lord. Lead me along the right path, for my enemies are waiting for me. 12Do not let me fall into their hands. For they accuse me of things I’ve never done; with every breath they threaten me with violence. 13Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 14Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

Rambling.

I’d like to believe someday I will get it right. The lessons I do not wish to learn will stop waiting for me around the corner. Took some time out for myself to really be free of all the past bullshit I’ve been through. Just to be faced with yet another bullshit lesson waiting for me. Fucking ashamed is an understatement. The exhausted me, wants nothing more than to completely give up. Wave that fucking white flag. The hopeful me wants to get back up dust off the wasted time and leave it in the past with the rest of the bullshit where it belongs. It’s my doing, the decisions I made. To blame the entire gender would just be ridiculous and immature. After all they didn’t all have a meeting and say to this person ” Hey! You know that chick you talk too, fuck her over! “. Nope, its all me, accepting what I use to believe I deserved. See ladies & gents, no matter what your significant other or person of interest has done. Ultimately the decision to accept less than you deserve was and always has been yours. Now if this person put up the front of some saint in the beginning. Well that decision was taken from you. Still does not mean you blame the entire gender. Now I’m religious but I won’t push my religion on you. In this specific situation I would thank god for showing me this persons true colors before years passed me by. You thank whoever it is you believe in or simply thank that person for putting a better head on your shoulders. Because at the end of the day that’s exactly what happened. As much as it hurts, no one has the power to keep hurting you. They might have brought you down but, they do not have the power to keep you down. With that said, every time you feel down, remind yourself of two or three great blessings or what you believe is amazing in your life and remember.. You will always have the best of yourself no matter how much you believe some asshole/bitch has taken. They are by no means your foundation. In my case, God, Family and Friends are my foundation. No one can take that from me. So, if anyone is going through a hard time. Surround yourself with everything you consider to be your foundation. And as each day passes by, it’ll get a little bit easier to breathe, to fall asleep, to get out of bed in the morning,to smile and laugh. Someday.. these heartbreaking lessons will no longer be waiting for me around every corner.. Someday.. ::HOPE::

XO!

I am a canvas of my experiences, my story is etched in lines and shading. K.D.

I am a canvas of my experiences, my story is etched in lines and shading. K.D.

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